my emo

2010／11／30 晴天

現在的我，

正在處於憂鬱的我！

。。。。

為甚麼，

每次都是我！？

害到別人被罵，而且錯的是我不是“她”！

她，

為了我留下了許多的眼淚！

當我想起她流的眼淚！？

我也哭了起來！

我真的是很懊惱，悲傷！

明明不關她的事，她卻被拖下水！

罵她的人，

明明就沒道理的罵她，

現在，

卻

將她們的關係搞得非常非常非常僵硬！

都是我，

害得她挨罵！

她沒心上課，考試！

都是我，

害得她為了我流了許多的眼淚！

她因此而感到壓力很大！

都是我，

害得她忍無可忍，

逼她講了一些她不想講的話！

都是我，

害得她有始以來最難聽的頂撞，

搞得關係，環境，氣氛就像處於冷戰的狀態！

句句都是

都是我

害得她。。。。。。（怎樣怎樣）！

為甚麼，

我卻有時還和她頂撞！

她那麼的為我犧牲了一切，

而我，

卻為她做了甚麼！？

這是我不忍心看到的東西！？

為甚麼就是發生了！？

為甚麼，為甚麼，為甚麼，為甚麼，

為甚麼，為甚麼，為甚麼，為甚麼，

我回想她為了而頂撞別人到流淚的時候，

我也不禁為她流下了淚！

流淚，

且不能為她彌補些甚麼！？

最後，

我想說，

在這段冷戰過後，

我有了輕生了想法！

因為，

如果輕生能讓她變得更好，

我寧願去死了！

為她赴湯蹈火，也不會推辭！

她也因此在我心中占了非常重要的位置！

若我們不是姐弟關係，

妳要我為你付出甚麼，

我都願意！

致

我最親愛的

姊姊！

16/6/10

2 months no write the blog liao!

now,

i got the feeling back 2 write the blog

cuz

i got a precious n priceless lesson-SPORT SOCIETY CAMP!

although it is the first time,

bt many participant giv a vr gud fedback!

THIS CAMP,

TEACH ME SCARE IS USELESS IN DOING SOME MATER!

TEACH ME WANNA ALWAYS THINK BACK WAT MISTAKE I HAV DONE!

TEACH ME OUR SPORT SOCIETY IS NOT A GROUP AGAIN BT A FAMILY!

TEACH ME WANNA ALWAYS BE CONFIDENT 2 MYSELF!

TEACH ME IF SOMETHING PROMISED THN WANNA PAY THE BEST EFFORT 2 IT!

JIA YOU!

SPORT!

AD OIL!

SPORT SPORT

AD OIL! AD OIL!

SPORT SPORT SPORT

AD OIL! AD OIL! AD OIL!

I FELT HONOR CUZ CAN DO,PLAY,CHAT N FRIEND WIF

ZACK NG,KRISTOPHER,A-LOY,"UMBRELLA",PETER "PAN","SHALANE LIN",WEI CHENG!

N MORE.....................

KRISTOPHER

LET ME NOE SCARE IS USELESS!

A-LOY,

LET ME NOE WE HAV MUST BE INDEPENDENT WHEN WE FACE PROBLEM

"UMBRELLA"

LET ME NOE ANTHING MUZ HV IT BACK UP FOR ANY SUDDEN ACCIDENT

PETER "PAN"

THANKS FOR GIVING SO MANY CHANCE N CAN NOE SO MORE FRIEND

WEI CHENG

ALWAYS GIVING ME SUPPORT WHEN I M TIRED FOR CLEANING UP!

SHALANE LIN

LET ME NOE EVERYBODY MUZ HAV STEP OUT THEIR FIRST STEP THN CAN SUCCESS N SHE IS VR GUD N LIFE EX!

SO THANK YOU FOR ANYONE TAT I HAV MNETIONED UPSTAIR!

I FELT LUCK N HONOR CUZ CAN MET U ALL!

THANK YOU!

FINALLY,

I ALWAYS REMEMBER WAT KRISTOPHER HAV SCOLDED 2 ME N I WIL PAY MY BEST EFORT FOR COMING CHALLENGE N SOCIETY MATER N SECOND SPORT SOCIETY CAMP!

24/4/10

2day

i m on the fire

cuz

my clas voleybal lose liao!

haiz.........

the mathch can win de lol!

so ke qi!

n i did many crazy action in the court!

n

my emotion can't control n.........

sry for me teamate wana hear me........

20/4/10

2day

continue 3 period oso test

walau!

i ever have tis be4!

the algebra n physic smal test is coming!

tis is the ONI chance 2 take back the mark!

jia you!

n get top 10 in the clas!

2molo vs 6sxiao voleybal!

jia you!

haha!

the sunday

go cheong k wif sis n sis in law!

haha!

so hapy!

七里香 吉他初学记录

17/4/10

haiz,,,,,,,,

2day o!

my suck result make me got a litle sad lol!

now i got math n physic tuiiton liao!

i hop i can get 70 something mark of the subject total percentage!

if not,

thn fuck u lah!

haiz.............

i think i maybe i found vr gud teacher liao!

thn

next c ur self lah!

.........

got a half of total subject get fail lol!

my family dun noe i get the result 2day

cuz

i wil have no good day for me after telling me!

haiz..........

no for next time lah!

jia you!

dun noe y always careless!

the physics n trigo smal test come again!

tis is the chance 2 get back the mark!

jia you!

n reach the total percentage mark 70 something!

n get top 10 in the clas!

i noe u can do it!

i vr sad tat

i get the lowest mark abt the physic in the clas!

haiz..........

NO NO NO!

16/4/10

2day

after the 2 period of bio

thn fel asleep!

haha!

2day the badminton training!

haiz............

nowatimes

i fel tat badminton is vr sienz,......

slowly n slowly

i think my volleybal wil overwrite it!

dun noe lah!

i wana learn badminton skil 2 improve myself

thn

i can find back the fun of playing badminton!

jia you!

the first sememter test on 19/5

so fast!

2day

i angrily write the word is stupid,noob math teacher on the whiteboard!

i realy hate him lol!

tis type of teacher oso can let him teach us sher!

i think everything is not fair lol!

noob teacher,dirty n smely environment,noob air-cond!

haiz...........

noob

15/4/10

2day,

i go a litle hapy lol!

haha!
cuz

i got mke clearly the concept of physics!

haha!

jia you!

2day

i eat the red bean ice!

taste not bad!

i bought from the yao yao bing!

haha!

n

2day

our beside clas

got peo birthday

thn they play a luba

n

got spolit 2 broom!

walau!

so strong!

2day i got a news from newpaper

then say

got a japenese can make luv abt 10 hours!

dun noe how he do,n he break the world record!

14/4

2day,

playing the voleyball tat time,

my head got shot by buny!

so sad!

haiz.......

n the volleyball change the tounament time sudenly

vr zha dao lol!

2day

vr sienz lol

at the math period!

yesterday,

the xkul day is vr so hai,

got 9 period is same subject got 2 period lol!

we al wan die liao!

haiz........

walau.........

i haven't go on be4 lik tat the period!

11/4/10

2day

got many homework o!

walau!

lisan.script,the "sukan",physics,math n more

2molo got smal test liao!

i swear i wan get al smal test no 100 oso wan got 90!

i wan be it true bt not dream!

jia you!

especially math n physics!

the physics-projectile motion

the concept haven't strongthen!

wehn i gona make it clear!

ai yo!

n tis wil be more difficult liao!

my dream is being a forensic!

walau!

if u wan dream achive!

thn

u muz wan al pass n in the science!

n prove 2 somebody n myself tat my i m not nub

10/4/10

2day!

haiz!

my pendrive spolit liao!

i forgot take form the pocket then got air in it!
i m so forgetful!

sudenly

i felt i m a bad temper,forgetful,useless,wat oso can't do right

n

i dun hav confident 2 myself!

no anything is done vr gud for other's!

always ned other peo angry me!

haiz..........

i m so stupid n idoit n a loser!

LOSER!

9/4/10

2day

got some luck n unluck lol!

i got niu dao my leg!

so painful leh!

haiz...........

bt

luckily got bus fetch me home

n i no ned 2 walk home!

haha!
if not,

my leg wil extremely pain leh!

haha!

2day

my parents check my al test paper!

i m forced 2 lie them

say i got al pass

bt

i got 4 subject pass!

sry for tat!

it won't have next!

abt8/4/10

haha!

2day

i go for a testing for the new physics tuition!

k lol!

quite gud lol!

bt

it 2 noisy

cuz got many clas in the living room there!

bt

nvm lah!

the teacher is vr sui he!

so

i dun fel 2 stress abt he!

haha!

i hop i can get amazing result in ohysics after goind for tis tuition!

haha!

abt 6/4/10

i think manybody

duno i got play guitar rite?

haha!
it is true!

haha!

dun have a doubt abt tat!

it is a fact!

i m becoming more n more lik the guitar!

cuz many nice song r waiting for me 2 learn it!

tis is the fun of music lah!

haha!

bt

now

i m gona learn my speed of changing chord!

it quite difficult!

bt

i trust i can !

now i m playing the hapy birthday song!

n later

i would like 2 learn the most sad korean drama song

is from lan se shen si lian

de

romance of lave!

haha!
it is soft n comfortable!

haha!
i m longing 2 learn tis song!

haha!

hop my guitar techinque

got a litle improve lah!

cuz

i got a long time dun play be4 my guitar!

haha!

tis month is already april liao!

hop my math n physics got a lilte changes lah!

dun always fail leh!

i dun like it always folow me!

i wan physics tuition!

bt

i scare

tis wil ad up my stress

n my mum gona giv more de tuition fee!

n

i hop tis money wil not giving meaningless!

tat mean

the subject i got tuition

muz get a or pass then ok lah!

jia you!

lu see chong!

i noe u can!

gambaeh!

holiday sienz

2day

5/4/10

vr sienz lol

cuz

HOLIDAY!

the result is gona out after 2 wek!

walau!

dun noe how ugly it is!

i dun wan be the last in the form n class!

haiz...........

i wan be the top 10 in the clas!

y always dun go in my way everything!

is tat abt my luckines!

dun noe lah!

holiday

make my laziness come out again!

qing ming jie

2day damn tired!

cuz

wan wake up early lik going 2 skul 2 go sao mu!

haha!
the friendship game i lost

so shame n noob!

haiz.............

yesterday

when i come back from skul

thn bath

after that

then wan go kampung 2 sembahyang liao!

haha!

abt my mood now(1/4/10)

hapy april foo,

haha!

2day

is a funy a hapy day!

cuz

everybody muz take some jokes 2 scare or make fun wif others!

i m oso!

haha!

the most popular on the skul jokes is

said the boy dun hav zip his long pants!

haha!

then,

........................

2molo badminton got a friend game

versus bing hua

got a litle excited!

giv everybody wat do u got!

jia you!

haha!

a day tat intersect sad n hapy

sad n hapy,
is totally not same ,
but they got in my mood 2day 2gather!
so weird!
walau,
hapy cuz
the test finaly is over liao haha!
sad,
is when i got some test fail!
y always is tat a few subject fail!
haiz,.................
oso got tuition liao,
exercises oso got do liao lol
n the concept oso understand liao!
haiz..............
dun noe wat problem,
hop it got some changes abt it!
anyway,
i oso got a ready 2 accecpt tis cruel fact!
haha!
jia you,
dun giv it up easily lol!
u can do it de!
giv more de effort on which weak!

walau

haiz....

2day 

is the third day liao,

i never

talk wif mum

cuz

we hav argue n"cool war" now!

haiz.........

y ?

is juz a litle mater,

can't make tis tragic hapen?

.....................

dun noe wat she is angry for!

i juz tel my dad my mum scold tat abt my bathing pro!

then,

she say me vr "pandai"go complain she scold me!

then,

she's stingy,

angry til now,

oso dun talk wif me!

dun noe!

haiz.....................

thn,

she oso scold me tat y dun tel her walk 2 find dad!

bt i already told her i wil go find dad!

i dun noe wat her brain remember exactly!

i would lik 2 go out tis home n dun face 2 face wif her ar?

dun noe y women so stingy!

be more generous oso cannot!

be more generous wil die meh!

the thing above i said,

mean i m vr angry abt my mum lol!

hop it wil setle be4 my test

if not,

wil influence my test mood!

walau!

y the"cool war" wan hapen now or!

conclusion,

women is a thing cant make "it" angry wan!

if not,

u wil not hav a gud day!

finaly i find it back reali of me

my hapiness,
my a litle hardworking back,
haha!
vr hapy!
bt
uluckily,
2day got argue wif my mum,
bt smal mater lah,
wil settle n solve a few days !
the test is coming,
physics leh!
i dun noe how 2 face the teacher tat make the questions,
i noe the math teacher huh got make the question paper,
bt i dun say it out
cuz it is secret!
haha!
god bles me!
haha!
although i m not christian,
bt
i trust tat there hav god in the world

2day,

18/3/10,

stil same same like a few days ago,

face the buk abt a few minute then go play com liao!

walau,

got 1 wek then tst liao,

stil like tat lah,

ararararaararararrarraararar,

i vr upset abt tis~

i can't find the fel n real of myself back!

nonononnonono~~

i think i maybe crazy in tis holiday!

2molo got math tuition

duno oso got mud 2 go a not!

aiyo............................

y somebody can do their mater everytime,

bt

abt me

y always wanna c my mud then go do the mater i ike 2 do at tat time

tis is a bad habit leh!

no nud then dun wan

got mud

wat oso can!

n my mud changes unstablely in tis holiday!

is tat MUD so important 2 me whther i do anything else!

wan 2 erase it be4 what i am being

I WAN ERASE MY,
altitude,
method of reading,
time of reading,
altitude of doing a mater,
my thinking,
my react,
my laziness,
the childish act,
almost everything i wan 2 change,
hop i can change my self in tis holiday,
cuz...........
personal reason...
if not change it,
i would facing some bad thing 2 me!
when i get tis message,
n i stunt,
tat
finaly,
my method of reading is wrong,
n
my result is coming down n downer a yer n a yer
n
i dun c it!
walau,
dun noe what i am cing n thinking n doing!
in tis holiday,
everyday oso wan 2 face the com,
tis is not be4 mine!
walau,
is tat me!
hop i can find back myself tat be4 holiday
cuz
tat's really belong 2 real of me
lu see chong!lu see chong!lu see chong!wanna say gud b 2 the laziness,playful n childish act!
ARARARARARARARAARARARARARARARARARARARAARARARARARAARARARA!

my mood at 15/3/10

halo,my friend!i hav 3 or 4 month time dun write my blog,cuz one word

LAZY!haha!

2day is the first semester first holiday,

holiday again!

dun noe y now dun like holiday,

cuz the first standerised test is coming,n no mud 2 read in the holiday!

tis three month of 2010,

i have sad ,hapy,suprise,no direction doing some mater be4!

tat is sign of mine growing!

my mud is always wan music 2 suport!

cuz if NO MUSIC,

i can't do the homework attention,

chinese new yer is juz pass abt 1 month,

so fast our play time is over!

haiz................

now is form4 liao,

many new thing 2 face n accecpt liao,

is no more junior 3 for me lah..........

stil duno myself wanna read wat subject when i go for the college!

is it 2 fast or slow for me 2 thinking abt it!

my mud is vr BORING NOW!

although,there is many is waiting for me 2 handle!

walau!

come on,lu see chong!

tis is the second day of the semester holiday oni,

tel me how i gona go through the whole holiday!

so sad................

tis is the new post for m 2010,

n

is oso a new start for my blog!

i hop now hav a song can express my mood~~

n

juz sing a long n release my sadness mood~

i would like 2 cry loudly now,

duno y,

i dun care whether i m adult or child

is juz release my sadness mood!

ARARARAARARARARARARARARARARARAARRARAARARARARAARAR!